Hello Bloggosphere!

I'm back, maybe ready for a little 2.0 even. So right now I'm on summer break from university and I'm back to working at the fortress. These past 2 years have been pretty uneventful but that's what happens when you're a boring person, right? You know what, I'm okay with boring. I'm young and there's plenty of time for living so I like to take it slow right now. On the other hand, life is probably slower than usual because work is absolutely sucking the energy right out of me. This year, I get to dress up like a colonial French soldier and pretend to be a guy. Fun, I know right? Anyway, I have plenty of beefs about my working situation, like how I didn't really want to go back there but kind of had to in the end; to not being allowed to fire a musket yet. I mean, what's the fun of dressing up like an 18th century soldier if you can't fire a musket?

Anyway, I've kind of wanted to revamp my blog to just be more concentrated on one thing that might help to motivate me to perhaps achieve something. My new theme is going to be change. I want to overhaul my life in the next year or so. I want to create a lifestyle change that can only be for the better and will add years to my life as well as make me feel as young as I am right now. The reason behind using the blog for this would be so that I can feel accountable to someone, even if you are anonymous, I don't want to fail when I'm being watched. I'm really going to concentrate my blog now on some of my bigger life goals and how I'm going to get to them and achieve them.

I will be setting up an update schedule so that I'm not bouncing in an out and I'll also try to reflect on different themes that I want to discuss with anyone that feels like they want to read this. Hopefully, in my finding myself, I can help someone find themselves. Which is bringing me into our first true theme;

Finding a direction.

Making a life commitment to overhaul what you're currently doing with your life is huge. It's not an easy thing to decide to do and it's not an easy thing to achieve. In life there's many temptations, whether your weakness is the sexy pair of heels at the trendy shop downtown or the bag of chips in the cupboard. There's usually a better choice to be made than the one you pick. Or at least that's the case for me. Sure, I don't really need another pair of shoes and I definitely don't need those chips, but for some reason that doesn't stop me. I know these things aren't good for me (since I have student loans that will be attacking me all too soon and about 50 extra pounds of me that don't need to be there), but I STILL DO IT! Why is it that I'm so hellbent on self-sabotage? Truth is, I don't really know. I know it usually is more instant-gratification to eat that chocolate bar then run for 20 minutes on the treadmill, but is that what's really driving all my vices? Sloth? Gluttony? Greed? Envy? Do all those combine to simply create what I am?

While I don't know the source of my current drive-state, I do know it's time for change and a real direction. Over the next year, I hope to discover myself, all I am and all I can be. I'm looking to find what I would like to achieve and what is possible to achieve in the near future and what needs to be put off until later. I need to learn to live life a little more fully each day and take pride in who I can be. With the help of my blogging, I hope to really just find the true me.